Karmayogi

What we need in our world!

The finish line

As the finish line approaches.. The racer is in 2 states... Happy for having won it.. Melancholic for the pointlessness and all that he has fought against ...  'For what' is what he asked eventually... All that he could hear was the uproar of his audience..... His inner voice muted by the intensity of externalities

You have always been a beauty!

This was during one of those lonely bike rides after 2am in the night after a days work at office. Exhausted I was and lets also add a flavor of dejection to the scene. Singing out my favourite songs aloud while riding is something which I do quite often. Melodies that strike a chord with your thoughts and emotions are mostly chosen :P

Nilavinte neelabahsama kurai aninjavale came up and though I don’t do it quite often, I spared a moment to look up at the sky for a glimpse of the “Nilavu”. I stopped my bike on the side, the sight was amazing!

I could see a beauty ignored, dejected and subjugated in the darkness. The Moon!

I stopped at this breath taking view of the glamorously illuminated Bandra worli sea link, next to our flat, by the side of the mahim bay to catch a better view of her.

She was still and standing lonely, in the dark. The clouds would smother her, she would be blinded for a while, but with nothing but hope, she would still come back, seeking for attention, that she never really got in her whole life!

People associate her with eeriness, ignorance, deprivation and servility (low caste / nagas). Not her fault right! I mean look at it her friend, the Sun was the attention seeker, symbolizing radiance, character, supremacy and auspiciouness and the moon, who really cared? We all rush to catch a glimpse of the sunrise or sunset, we love the sun and we admire it. But the moon, she was never cared for, leave alone revered! How would that feeling be? I wondered, would she have accepted it, would she be sad. Day in Day out, fate had it that she would be visible only when people slept. She would relentlessly serve her Karma in dejection! Silence at her best!

It was spontaneous. The much acclaimed "Karmayogi" tag ripped off the sun and placed on her cute forehead! I could now see her smile, a tear dropping down her eyes and all I could say was: “You little thing, you have always been a beauty”

Peace and death

To think that I won't be able to see you ever again is grievance that will only end with me
To realize that all you have done to make me what I am.... was always unconditional is a feeling I cannot stop crying forTo feel the pain of not being to able to spend my time with you, listening to your interesting yet trivial problems, roaming around with you in the auto shopping and buying flowers, buying those horror books, colourful calendars and wallpapers, each and everytime giving me the feeling that doing so was the most awesome thing I could do, is unbearably difficuly 

To realise that you are no more and that my childhood days are now semi-void, my life sucked out of half life is horryfing

Yet with all the happiness in the world, to a wonderful human being, my ammumma, I tell you although even your ashes are no more with us you will live through your love and the fond memories.

You shall be missed but happy I am for the peaceful way you bid farewell once and for all, symbolizing the way you lived independently.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjqkTb7aZzk

Bye bye forever! I shall only continue to love you!

Look around!

A human mind needs attention! Its his fuel. He tries to cling onto things that make him feel comfortable. He yearns for love, care and emotional consoling. He prejudices his mind to befriend somebody which might not be remotely possible. But little does he know if there is someone else seeking for the same love and attention from himself. Its a vicious circle and all one needs to do is look around. U will find it! But unlike last time being selfish, this time reciprocate.

That greatest feeling in life!

Is it that smile on a mother’s face when she sees her new born baby in her shivering arms for the first time ever!

Would it be those happy tears of a home-bound soldier as he sees his soulmate’s pensive face through the glimmer of his lantern, reminded of a time when he wished to see her for only one last time at the warfield to tell her that she was the most beautiful thing to have happened in his life.

Is it the excitement on a dad’s face when he sees his child coming back someday with his bike, only to take him for his first ever ride, reminded of the days when he used to teach him his cycle; his mind clinging onto those hazy memories of that last time when he left the kid on his own feet with a gentle push from behind, promising him....come what way that he would always be next to him!

Is it that smile with a scent of achievement of a village girl who has fought her way out from the underprivileged, poor, uneducated and male chauvinistic society that she was destined to be born, finally returning to her village with her first pay cheque only to place it on the feet of her parents and thanking them for all the empty stomach nights they have spent and lot many other things sacrificed in their life.

Would it be that moment when the person whom you love the most, holds you by your hand and tells you eye-to-eye, heart-to-heart that you are the most gorgeous creature in the whole world and bending on the knees gives you that first kiss of your life on your cold hands.

Touchy, emotional and feel good moments these and many others that each and every one can type down, are!!

But for me, if you can be that reason for the little smile amidst the tears of a struggling individual, irrespective of sex, caste, relations, religion what not, that is what I would describe to be the greatest feeling! There is unconditionality, care, love and above all godliness!

Anbe Sivam!

If there is one movie that has inspired me with a way of living, it has been Anbe Sivam (“Love is God”), an epic tamil movie that revolves around a series of events that follow the tryst of two individuals with varying ideologies. The movie is one that dwells deep into philosophies like communism, atheism and altruism and brings one goosebumps multiple times taking him into deep introspective thought zones.

The key message the movie teaches the viewer can be compared to another of the ancient vedic schools of thought: Tat-Tvam-Asi. It is one of the philosophies I preach and believe in. To be content and yet be available for others around one, without caring if the favour is reciprocated is precisely what godliness, divinity, enlightenment and the likes of it mean, is the message it carries. Unconditional love and care, the gist of which is never understood or rather refused to be is what we seek in the supreme one and what if he can be in you. That search or quest might be what life is about. This movie has inspired me in many ways. The things that I have done till date and my philosophy for an approach towards life was derived from this one movie, played by the legendary Kamal.

Live the moment. Go back to your past, cry, laugh, jump around, fist yourself. The future is bleak and random anwyays. Rather than fighting for the future, if one could become content with what he has and reach out to others who are struggling and expect nothing in return except that sweet smile amidst the tears of a struggling individual, and if you can unhesitatingly do it time and again, then my friend u are that supreme being.

In the end you and I are loners, relentlessly striving for our identity. Quenching our ego and seeking incentives for every effin thing we do. There is nothing as God. If it comforts you and satisifies you everytime u go to a temple, I want to throw it on everyone’s face, we are the biggest losers and evaders in life. What do you think happens to the Rs.50 you donate to a temple? Don’t you think giving it to somebody outside, starving off food would be a better deed? Its simple aint it. But do we care to think different, such is the depth at which religion and faith have interlaced into our social life. Such is MEDIOCRITY. 

Mother Teresa, Mahathma Gandhi are all examples for human-gods had science and documenting not developed so fast. They are all individuals who believed in a way of life like Mahavir Jain or Gautam Buddha. Altrusim is indeed a romantic philosophy but I believe it must be inculcated in oneself especially given the pace at which our lives are progressing. Food for thought I say and for all reasons including Kamal’s extraordinary brilliant acting, Madhavans subtely powerful supporting role, the BGMs, the plot and most importantly the message it tells one, the movie is a must watch for anyone who needs a bit of inspiration and guidance in life, I think! Here is one video clip that might as well tempt one to watch the movie.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Pg3spKxKQ1c

 “Yaar yaar Sivam… Nee than Sivam”.. “Who is the supreme one… Its none but you”. Deep, profound, esoteric but I think it is an enlightenment, an indispensable catharsis for mediocrity and the uninitiated.