Karmayogi

What we need in our world!

The finish line

As the finish line approaches.. The racer is in 2 states... Happy for having won it.. Melancholic for the pointlessness and all that he has fought against ...  'For what' is what he asked eventually... All that he could hear was the uproar of his audience..... His inner voice muted by the intensity of externalities

You have always been a beauty!

This was during one of those lonely bike rides after 2am in the night after a days work at office. Exhausted I was and lets also add a flavor of dejection to the scene. Singing out my favourite songs aloud while riding is something which I do quite often. Melodies that strike a chord with your thoughts and emotions are mostly chosen :P

Nilavinte neelabahsama kurai aninjavale came up and though I don’t do it quite often, I spared a moment to look up at the sky for a glimpse of the “Nilavu”. I stopped my bike on the side, the sight was amazing!

I could see a beauty ignored, dejected and subjugated in the darkness. The Moon!

I stopped at this breath taking view of the glamorously illuminated Bandra worli sea link, next to our flat, by the side of the mahim bay to catch a better view of her.

She was still and standing lonely, in the dark. The clouds would smother her, she would be blinded for a while, but with nothing but hope, she would still come back, seeking for attention, that she never really got in her whole life!

People associate her with eeriness, ignorance, deprivation and servility (low caste / nagas). Not her fault right! I mean look at it her friend, the Sun was the attention seeker, symbolizing radiance, character, supremacy and auspiciouness and the moon, who really cared? We all rush to catch a glimpse of the sunrise or sunset, we love the sun and we admire it. But the moon, she was never cared for, leave alone revered! How would that feeling be? I wondered, would she have accepted it, would she be sad. Day in Day out, fate had it that she would be visible only when people slept. She would relentlessly serve her Karma in dejection! Silence at her best!

It was spontaneous. The much acclaimed "Karmayogi" tag ripped off the sun and placed on her cute forehead! I could now see her smile, a tear dropping down her eyes and all I could say was: “You little thing, you have always been a beauty”

Peace and death

To think that I won't be able to see you ever again is grievance that will only end with me
To realize that all you have done to make me what I am.... was always unconditional is a feeling I cannot stop crying forTo feel the pain of not being to able to spend my time with you, listening to your interesting yet trivial problems, roaming around with you in the auto shopping and buying flowers, buying those horror books, colourful calendars and wallpapers, each and everytime giving me the feeling that doing so was the most awesome thing I could do, is unbearably difficuly 

To realise that you are no more and that my childhood days are now semi-void, my life sucked out of half life is horryfing

Yet with all the happiness in the world, to a wonderful human being, my ammumma, I tell you although even your ashes are no more with us you will live through your love and the fond memories.

You shall be missed but happy I am for the peaceful way you bid farewell once and for all, symbolizing the way you lived independently.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kjqkTb7aZzk

Bye bye forever! I shall only continue to love you!